Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.
Recently, about 6 months ago I was in the worst depression of my life.
It is not easy sharing such a thing, but it is true. I would not even want to get out of bed. I would sleep as long as I could and leave myself 15 minutes to get ready for the day. That resulted in not being ready for the day and the day being unprepared for left a mess behind. Each day kept snowballing bigger and bigger on me.
The truth behind it all, was my anxiety and my worry.
I was worried I wasn’t enough, wasn’t ever going to be enough, could not reach my goals, would never have enough money to get back on top of finances, etc.
EVERY little worry in the worried succumbed me to a dark hole of thoughts and emotion.
Instead of working harder I worked less. I cared less. I even became something I never thought I would be.
I should have worked through the emotion as I went through it, but instead I harbored the feelings inside me, didn’t tell anyone what I was thinking, and became alone and silent.
This hurt me more.
Please, if you are experiencing this in your life, DONT RUN! Face it! Face it head on and deal with how you feel. Talk about it, learn from it, and work through it.
I wish I had this knowledge then, as now I am so much stronger. I hit the bottom, faced my issues and became so strong.
Now, I wake up and get right up. Drink my coffee, and face the day with positivity.
I have a special family in my life to thank for this. They pulled me out of this depression when I left home for my troubles.
They helped me heal by giving patience, hope, and strength. I am so thankful to have a support group such as them, I do not know how I will ever be able to repay them.
All in all, push the worries away. They only will break you down. Break away from toxic people, they have no purpose in your life but to push you down. Love every piece of your life, it is important. Love yourself, as you are. But keep getting better. Be the best you possible.
This blog also helps, I am able to have a channel to express myself, and that is amazing. You all are so supportive and kind with your words!
If there is anything in your life that is not going how it should, reassess, breathe, and move forward into the day. You can do it! I believe in you! If I was able to do it, you can too.
Hope these words helped anyone who is experiencing such troubles.
Take care beautiful souls. ❤